On the wagon…

Day 7

No wine, vodka, whiskey-none of my favorite things.  I’ve done it before, I wrote about it, but this time seems harder for whatever reason.  I decided to take another break for a yet to be decided length of time-but I’ll manage.

For the first couple of days I had liquor on the brain and questioned my motives endlessly.  Why am I torturing myself?  Is it even worth it?  I didn’t lose any weight last time, what makes it seem that things will be different? 

I persisted through those really hard days and here I am on day 7 and feeling better about it.  I figured I may as well share some of what I experienced through the process so far…

  • Sweating-during sleep I’d go through phases of being comfortable and then covered in sweat.  It wasn’t horrible but not the most pleasant.
  • Irritability-I was cranky, I wanted a few glasses of wine to unwind and knew that wasn’t an option so…bark bark bark.
  • Bloating-even more bloated than when I consumed a bottle of wine.
  • Lethargy-I have no energy, feel a little down,  and somehow feel the need to watch Grey’s Anatomy from the very beginning.
  • Breakouts-my face is starting to look like that of a teenager.  I know it’s temporary but I’m definitely not happy about it.
  • Sugar cravings-I realize now that the alcohol I was consuming was feeding that craving and now, in the absence of alcohol, I need ALL the carbs.  Oatmeal Creme Pies, Nutty Buddy’s, chocolate covered blueberries, breads…Gimme!!

Honestly, I’ll be even happier when I lose the bloat and sugar cravings.  I’ve already gained a few pounds from the shitty sugar foods I’ve been eating in just one week.

I hope I still feel it’s worth it next week!

A Weight Watcher’s drop out

To say that life has gotten busy would be quite the understatement…

I’m exhausted a lot of the time and when I have a few minutes where I’d like to sit down and update, the phone rings (or I get a text), or I’m getting harassed by the city, or whatever else-nothing but interruptions.

Anyway…

I started diet #927 last month-Weight Watchers.  I wish I could say that the weight is just pouring off but I find that I’m gaining and losing the same two pounds.  I don’t understand it-I count *everything* with no success.  I’m not happy-in fact, I feel like I’m always starving.  I don’t think it’s going to work out between the two of us.

Weight Watchers starts you off with an amount of points depending on how much you weigh and give you an additional 35 points as your safety net in case you go over.  You pull from those extra points when you deplete your daily allotment.  I suppose it’s a bit of psychology so you don’t feel like a failure.

I’m allowed 30 points per day.  Their plan has been altered so that now all fruits and most vegetables are zero points.  This means I can have grapes, strawberries, mangoes…without guilt!  On low carb diets, fruit is a no-no.  I may have gone a little overboard with the mangoes for a week but, hey, according to them fruit is good and better than cookies.

But this plan isn’t working.  30 points equals about 1400 calories, not including whatever you eat in fruits and veggies.  So while I feel like I’m starving most days, I’m still not losing-but still feeling like a total loser. I read all of the success stories on their message board called ‘Connect’ and wonder what the hell I’m doing wrong and why my system is so inferior to everyone else’s.  They are all losing consistently, while I am not.  Why??  I’m starting to wonder if they pay people to post on there to keep sales up.

What gives?

I can tell this diet isn’t going to be one I can stay with because I need to see some sort of reward-if I’m going to lose out on money and calories, I need to see the numbers go down on the scale.  I have to feel like my sacrifice is going to reward me and so far after a month,  I’ve lost about one pound.  I bloat a lot from the processed foods on the low point list-what in the world is in shredded nonfat cheese to where you can have a half cup for 1pt?  That doesn’t sound right, does it?  Nothing is filling and I find myself overly focused on what I can eat next when I didn’t have this obsession prior to Weight Watchers.

When I signed up, they gave two options on how to pay:  one month for $20 or three months for $40 so I chose the latter.  I’m not sure I can do the whole three months without any change.  I find myself really getting depressed about this whole thing.  It makes me wonder if I have some strange tropical disease (while never actually leaving the country) that makes it impossible to lose weight, but all my blood tests are normal.

I can always buy a tapeworm…

Any suggestions?

I’d like to feel as happy as I can make myself look and all that will take is 20lbs.

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Dieting with panache

I’m always on a damn diet.  I think I’ve spent more time on than off, as a matter of fact. You’d think I would be at the goal I’ve set for myself;  that magical number where once you reach it the clouds part, the sun shines brightly, and the angels sing.  Ah, nope.  I feel like a fat lump of clay.  My husband says I look good to him and never says anything negative but I want to look good to me.  I’m not sure where I’m failing but I hope to get it squared away soon.  What a waste of time and energy to be consumed by things one puts in one’s mouth (pun intended)!

I find it hard not to be swayed when I visit my mom’s house.  She buys nothing but crap.  Cookies, cakes, pies, Twinkies, and Ding Dongs, you name it, it’s probably stuffed in her pantry somewhere.  I try to stay out of her kitchen as much as possible.

In my quest to shrink my size, I’ve read and reread numerous dieting books.  The one that seems to appeal most to my appetite is low carb.  I’ve read two separate Atkins books numerous times and there are plenty of celebrities who have had success with it.  For some reason, I seem to be one of the few who hold on to pounds like my life depends on it.  I’m determined, however, and I’ll share some recipes and such along with pictures because maybe you’ll be the one able to tell me what I’m doing wrong!

And even though I haven’t managed to lose a large amount of weight yet, I almost feel like a semi pro in the low carb world and may even be able to help you, even if it’s just to get you to consider how much sugar you eat through the course of a day.  That would be helpful, wouldn’t it?  Well of course it would, silly.

I’m not a fancy cook;  no chef extraordinaire, but I do like to try out a new dish or make something unusual.  It’s not always a winner, not by a long shot, but you don’t learn unless you try, and I can share my successes and failures with you here.

I know it’s June, it’s not a new year, but I do have new things on the horizon and I feel hopeful.  My kids will be starting a new school this fall, my oldest son seems receptive to rehab, my second son is thriving in the Navy, and I’ve been writing blog posts consistently.  These things make me happy and I feel as though it gives me the extra push to do better with my diet-like I, too, might succeed!

I love avocados.  Living in California means that they’re abundant, too.  I even have an avocado tree next door that is, oh, around 60 years old, I’d say.  My grandparents planted it from a seedling a friend had given them and it has grown abundantly.  Of course, none of them are ripe yet so I spent $3 on two at the local farmer’s market.  I normally wouldn’t buy them because they’re so pricey but they looked so good.  After looking around on Pinterest I concocted this recipe.  Sometimes the stuff you throw together quickly can be the most tasty.

Now don’t frown, this was delicious and quite filling.  Here are the ingredients:

  • 1 small avocado, halved
  • 1 egg
  • 1 tablespoon of real butter
  • 1/3 cup sliced mushrooms
  • 1 tablespoon cotija cheese
  • 1 tablespoon horseradish sauce

I halved the avocado and set it aside as I fried the mushrooms in the butter.  After they were done cooking, I put them on a paper plate and fried the egg in the remaining butter until done.  The egg fit nicely inside the avocado and then I topped it with the mushrooms, cheese, and horseradish sauce.  This was so good and I was satisfied for several hours, afterwards.

Nutritional info:

  • avocado 4 net carbs
  • egg 1 carb
  • mushrooms .56 carbs
  • cotija cheese0
  • horseradish 1 carb
  • butter 0 carbs

This brings the grand total to 6.56 net carbs.  That’s very low carb and full of healthy fats.

What do you think, would you try it?