To say that life has gotten busy would be quite the understatement…
I’m exhausted a lot of the time and when I have a few minutes where I’d like to sit down and update, the phone rings (or I get a text), or I’m getting harassed by the city, or whatever else-nothing but interruptions.
I started diet #927 last month-Weight Watchers. I wish I could say that the weight is just pouring off but I find that I’m gaining and losing the same two pounds. I don’t understand it-I count *everything* with no success. I’m not happy-in fact, I feel like I’m always starving. I don’t think it’s going to work out between the two of us.
Weight Watchers starts you off with an amount of points depending on how much you weigh and give you an additional 35 points as your safety net in case you go over. You pull from those extra points when you deplete your daily allotment. I suppose it’s a bit of psychology so you don’t feel like a failure.
I’m allowed 30 points per day. Their plan has been altered so that now all fruits and most vegetables are zero points. This means I can have grapes, strawberries, mangoes…without guilt! On low carb diets, fruit is a no-no. I may have gone a little overboard with the mangoes for a week but, hey, according to them fruit is good and better than cookies.
But this plan isn’t working. 30 points equals about 1400 calories, not including whatever you eat in fruits and veggies. So while I feel like I’m starving most days, I’m still not losing-but still feeling like a total loser. I read all of the success stories on their message board called ‘Connect’ and wonder what the hell I’m doing wrong and why my system is so inferior to everyone else’s. They are all losing consistently, while I am not. Why?? I’m starting to wonder if they pay people to post on there to keep sales up.
I can tell this diet isn’t going to be one I can stay with because I need to see some sort of reward-if I’m going to lose out on money and calories, I need to see the numbers go down on the scale. I have to feel like my sacrifice is going to reward me and so far after a month, I’ve lost about one pound. I bloat a lot from the processed foods on the low point list-what in the world is in shredded nonfat cheese to where you can have a half cup for 1pt? That doesn’t sound right, does it? Nothing is filling and I find myself overly focused on what I can eat next when I didn’t have this obsession prior to Weight Watchers.
When I signed up, they gave two options on how to pay: one month for $20 or three months for $40 so I chose the latter. I’m not sure I can do the whole three months without any change. I find myself really getting depressed about this whole thing. It makes me wonder if I have some strange tropical disease (while never actually leaving the country) that makes it impossible to lose weight, but all my blood tests are normal.
I can always buy a tapeworm…
I’d like to feel as happy as I can make myself look and all that will take is 20lbs.